Escaping the confines of society has proven more difficult than expected. I set out on my journey seeking freedom and seeking adventure, I have found both but perhaps not to the desired extent.
I live in a house with people I did not know existed when I arrived in Hawaii. They let me stay for free. I get my food from a bi-monthly food bank. I always have just enough in my bank accoun. It seems that other people are always going in the same direction I need to go when I travel, and there is always an open room where I need to stay when I sleep. I come to lunch with nothing and I leave with boxes of food and full.
I do not mean to complain, I am very grateful for the blessings I do receive. But it is clear that the charity of people in society makes it difficult for them to lose one of their own. I feel like I could not escape society unless I did something to betray, to brand myself an outsider. There will be no slipping through the cracks. No one will let me go unnoticed. Not in this world. Nothing short of running for the fences, dodging every offer and side-stepping every good turn would get myself free from society.
So tomorrow morning I will hike for the falls, at the end of the road which I live on, Waihe'e. It will be my first time. And in my mind at least I will exit the bounds of society and find solace for a brief period.
And I will be grateful for societies warm arms.
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| We helped people move their food at the food bank as I took pictures. I soon discovered that I also qualified for food, having no income to speak of. |
I do not mean to complain, I am very grateful for the blessings I do receive. But it is clear that the charity of people in society makes it difficult for them to lose one of their own. I feel like I could not escape society unless I did something to betray, to brand myself an outsider. There will be no slipping through the cracks. No one will let me go unnoticed. Not in this world. Nothing short of running for the fences, dodging every offer and side-stepping every good turn would get myself free from society.
So tomorrow morning I will hike for the falls, at the end of the road which I live on, Waihe'e. It will be my first time. And in my mind at least I will exit the bounds of society and find solace for a brief period.
And I will be grateful for societies warm arms.
